Hooray for Tim!

Today is Tim's birthday! Happy Birthday to him! He has been such an amazing part of my life. He is a phenomenal husband. He is always so willing to help out around the house, he opens my doors, he will do anything asked of him because he is a selfless man with a great heart! I am so excited that 23 years ago today, he was born! If it weren't for that day, I have not idea where I would be right now and I don't care to know. I love him so much and I have been blessed to have been with him for almost 4 of those years. Happy Birthday Tim :0)

Finals are this week. I took one this morning which went pretty well. I had a terrible time focusing for some reason...but I got through it and hopefully it will be enough to get me an A! I have already turned in a take home final for my Children's Literature class and I have one more final to do for my Research and Practicum class. I finished my 28 page paper for that class and it feels amazing! All I have left besides that one final is work this week and so life is going pretty well right now.

Just an update for those of you who read my last post, I have been in the Word much more frequently. I admit that weekends I have slacked off, but weekdays I have done well! I read Ruth the other day because I had a dream I was supposed to. I realized how amazing of a husband I have to see some of the same qualities displayed by Boaz in Tim. Now, I am reading Romans. I must say my optimism has been way more prevalent lately...so thanks for the prayers!

Papa, Your birthday was two weeks ago and I was supposed to acknowledge that in my post and I got sidetracked by what I was typing. So, Happy Birthday Papa!!

Awakening

I have come to a realization. It has opened my eyes and has made me come to what I would like to call a personal awakening.

It all started in our chapel service on Wednesday. At ETBU, we are required to go to chapel, a 50 minute worship time on Mondays and Wednesdays. As we were singing, I was jolted by a sudden rush of emotion and passion. I was finally singing to a God that was touching me as I sang. I'm not saying that I have never sung to Him...but it has been a while since I have felt this strong sense of love, passion, and submission. As I sang, I realized that I have been far from Him. Yes, I have been leading bible studies and being active in the church...but my personal walk has sucked. My prayer life and time in the Word has suffered for the past year and a half. At this point, after feeling very down and depressed for the past weeks, I have repented to the God that I have selfishly neglected.

This brings me to tonight. If you have known me for more than three years, you would know that I have been an incredibly optimistic and bubbly person. However, the past year and a half I have been quite the opposite. I have been negative, easily depressed, and very closed off. Tonight as I was talking to one of Tim's friends, Andy, and I realized the reason for my lack of optimism and feelings of sadness have been to the lack of relationship I have mentioned previously. From my freshman year in high school to my freshman year in college it was rare that I missed a day in the Word and in prayer. Since coming to ETBU, I have been very inconsistent and my prayer life has been horrible. From realizing this, as mentioned previously, I know that I can be repaired. I have done this to myself and let Satan warp my optimism of life and Christ's joy in my heart. This is my awakening...things are about to change.

In other news, my parents are coming in town tomorrow and I am excited to see them! I am sad that I won't be making the trip to my Granny and Papa's, I miss my family very much. Granny and Papa, if you read this, I love y'all very much and I am sad that we won't be able to come in. We have a wedding tomorrow and we will be spending Easter here.

I will get my cd of wedding pictures tomorrow when my parents come in. I have not recieved my album yet after 9 months...so they are compensating by giving me the cd of pictures before I get my album...so I am excited. Perhaps I will share a few photos here!

Happy Easter!