Supermanitus

I am self diagnosing myself with Supermanitus ....... a disorder I made up myself.

I fall victim of Supermanitus often. I'm sure I'm not alone here (then again, I wouldn't be surprised since I am odd). I have this tendency to think about life's possibilities...I think about how capable I am and how much I have to offer the world. Then, I start wondering, "What am I doing here?" I honestly and truly feel like I could have chosen almost any career path. I think God has blessed us all with many abilities and learning quickly and enthusiastically is one of my favorite abilities.

However, I start dreaming...like unrealistically. I start wondering what if I went back to school and became a doctor, what if I did broadcasting school and took the unpromising plunge into the interning world? What if I became a wedding planner since I love weddings so much! What if I could be a motivational speaker since I love to talk and get people excited? What if I went into business because I like to be challenged and work my way up to the top (I do love competition!)?

I WANT to do it all! I want to be a superhuman! Then, I wonder if what I am doing is really what God wants of me. I mean, I love learning so much it's fitting to be a teacher, right?? But what if there is MORE? There IS more...God calls us to more than our jobs...past those weird dreams and unrealistic future planning. God wants us to be obedient...He wants us ALL. I want it! BUT, what else does He want?

I.am.capable. I.am.smart. BUT, I'm also a child of God and Supermanitus can be blinding to truth. So...what will I do in my future? Still unsure. For now, I teach and soak up the blessings. Someday, heaven is all that's certain...

Now that I took that post in many different directions...I will stop before it becomes any muddier.

:)

Holiday

I have obviously been on a holiday from Blogger...but now I am on a holiday in real life! So, my holiday from Blogger is o-v-e-r.

We have had a wonderful break! I came to Arlington Tuesday morning and hung out with my best friend and cousin, Kristin Stapleton. I love her, I love my time with her! Thursday evening, we had Christmas at my parents house. Tim drove in after work and Jeff, Sarah, and the kids came over. I love our family time! Then we ventured out to Big Lake, TX for Christmas with the Darsts.

What is in Big Lake, TX you may ask? Ummm....Dairy Queen?





....and some awesome family! Tim's sister Mary and her husband and kids live there. If you aren't familiar with them, here is the story. First of all, Daniel (Mary's husband) and Mary were my youth ministers starting my sophomore year of high school. They were wonderful...like they came to Target when I worked there at age 16 and bought a bag of candy just to give to me! HA!

Anyway, from that youth ministry developed a friendship. Mary became one of my best and wisest friends! She's my friend that I can not see for years and we hug and start talking as if we have seen each other everyday of our lives. I LOVE HER and had such a great time talking like old times! One thing I will be FOREVER grateful for is her having her first son, Chaz. ( I love Hannah...but this particular story involves Chaz!) As Mary is in labor with Chaz, I decide to come up to the hospital to support my best friend...Who is in the waiting room? None other than the super handsome Mr. Tim Darst. He is sleeping in a waiting room chair. I sit caddy corner to him. Tim wakes up and says, "Whoa! When'd you get here?" I go on to explain I just got there and he explains why he is tired...well, of course he's tired he and our friend Greg had spent most of the night counting mullets in Walmart (duh, right?). Because he is tired, I decide to help him fight fatigue. It just so happened that there was a magazine on the end table with 25 ways to fight fatigue. So, we read through them and laughed. We then proceeded to play paper football where I definitely won...legitimately...(he will never EVER admit that). He let me win right? NOT. Ok...digression...anyways, we end up exchanging *GasP* screen names! BIG STEP, right? HA. Then we start chatting nightly...he gets my number, asks me on a few dates and...TADA! Married almost two and a half years...all thanks to my friends Mary and Daniel!

We had a very sweet time with both sides of our family! Tomorrow, Molly and I will pack up and head home to relax before our TAKS semester begins! Here's to a new adventure!

on to day 4 and 5...

Day 4: Something you've had to forgive someone for...

I have to forgive Tim for drinking all of our drinks we share :) He doesn't mean to...he just does it. Who said this had to be a deep truth?

Day 5: Something you hope to do in your life.

As most wives and women do, I hope to have kids! Here is my furry child, Molly! She has been a blessing and a joy! But, I still want some human kids :)

Also, I want to be a radio personality...seeing in that I don't have my degree in communications or anything other than education...it's defnitely a long shot...but I would LOVE to get paid to talk and people may actually WANT to listen to me! How fun!

Day 3

Day 3: Something you have to forgive yourself for.

I must admit that this post was difficult to write. Because of the love and grace that is Jesus Christ, forgiveness is something that I learn more and more about. I feel I have not held guilt over myself for many things in my life because I am aware of the freedom that is Christ.

That said, I had a hard time coming up with something to write. I don't feel like I have struggled to forgive myself...but these are two things that I struggle with.
1) Spending time in the word. From sophomore year in high school to sophomore year in college, there were very few days I would miss reading my bible and spending time with God. Busy-ness has taken hold of my priorities and I am ashamed to say I have been very inconsistent the past few years. Recently, it has been my desire to get back into that intimate place with God.
2) As stated previously, I have built up a bunch of resentment towards myself when it comes to image. I need to forgive myself for being so judgemental of myself and learn to embrace the beauty God has placed inside of me.

Alright....something more fun.

Today we had a meeting in school and discussed stuff coming up in the next six weeks. These include,
1) 7 1/2 days until Thanksgiving break.
2) Early dismissal Nov. 19
3) Our third graders get to see the Nutcracker Ballet in December!
4) Our Christmas PARTY in my class!
5) 24 1/2 Days until Christmas break!

I went home this weekend and I was so homesick leaving!! I miss being close to family and I miss the Dallas area! Come on holiday breaks!!

Day 2

30 Days of Truth

Day 2: What I love about myself.

I love that I am a wife. I love this whole marriage thing. It has been so awesome and wonderful to be married to Mr. Tim and test out my wifey skills. I love to cook (not that cooking constitutes a good wife)! I love having a companion to share life with everyday and every night. I love waking up beside my best friend. I love having someone to make decisions with. I love to share stories at the end of the day. I love that I can just lean over on the couch and my hubs is there. I love having someone to talk about the future with! I just love being a wife!

I also love that I am ambitious. I love to push myself and achieve my goals. When I set my mind to something, I will do my very best to succeed. I love a challenge!

Here's to being a wifey!

30 Days of Truth

Taylor and Sarah have dived into the thirty days of truth, so here I come, too! Maybe this will motivate me to blog? I read everyone else's blogs everyday...but I just haven't been motivated to soul search or anything...so here goes 30 days of truth!

Day 1: Something you hate about yourself.

The number one thing I have hated about myself since I was elementary school is my weight. However, over the years I have realized that it's not my weight I hate...it's my mindset! I hate that I don't see myself the way that God sees me....or anyone else sees me for that matter. My husband tells me everyday how beautiful he thinks I am...how badly I'd love to believe him! I can remember back to before third grade struggling with seeing myself as beautiful. I hate it. I hate that it effects the way that I carry myself...I hate that it effects my relationship with my Creator and my husband.

I'm hoping day two is a happier truth!

Now that's out of the way...Halloween was exciting in our neck of the woods! Tim and I trecked out to our fall festival as bars of soap!

And I was also able to spend time with my ridiculously sweet nephew, Colin man who made a handsome Mario!

And how could we forget our sweet Molly Lou?? She, too, had a costume! We couldn't pass up the 50% off cow costume we found on Halloween at Petsmart. Sadly, no trick or treaters came by for her to show it off! But, I will give her some fame in the blog world! Meet Molly Moo!

Hopefully the next post will be sooner than later...