Mawiage

When I fell in love with Tim, I fantasized about how marriage was going to be and how wonderful it would be to have the love of my life with me forever. Now that it is here, I can't believe how naive I was....naive in a good way...naive to think that it would only be as good as I thought. It has exceeded my expectations and I am in awe at how wonderful it is to spend everyday and every night with the man God has called me to be with. It is crazy how perfectly God created marriage. Sure, it isn't always easy, but it is so amazing. The bond that grows between a husband and wife is absolutely breathtaking. How could two people be designed to help each other's weaknesses and feed off of each other's strengths so perfectly? I guess that is the mystery of God's power.

It brings me grief to see what our world today sees marriage as. It is a broken, corrupt, temporary fling that has fallen with mankind. This is not how it was intended to be. First of all, 1 Corinthians 13 explains the importance of love. Well, what is love? 1 John is full of love references that explain what love is and how we should love. Love is applied to each of the husband and the wife in Ephesians 5 telling of how the husband is to love his wife as Christ loved the church...bathing them in the word of God. Wives, they are to love their husbands and to submit to them. So, now it is obvious why marriage here has gone wrong. If people don't know of Christ's love in the first place, how can they have the marriage God intended them to?

Now, I'm not saying me and Tim's marriage is perfect by any means, but becaue we have the love of Christ, our love goes beyond what many American's love does. This is the wonderful gift of God. Knowing this, I am challenged to use our marriage as an example of grace and love and let people see that who may not know Christ. I want everyone to experience what God has intended for those who accept His love.

I love my husband and I love our marriage.

Work Work Bo Bork

So, here I sit at work again. Our system is getting upgraded today and tomorrow so besides campus tours...I have nothing to do! Again, I like my job, but when there is nothing to do, the time passes so SLOWLY. I wish I had something really exciting to write about...but I don't haha. I am actually up at the front desk since my boss went home and I guess it looks like I am working while I sit here and type, play on facebook, and look at wedding pictures. Poor Tim, he works outside in the heat all day, and I go out there everyonce in a while, but for the most part I get the luxury of airconditioning. He is always so tired when he gets home, it makes me feel bad for him!

I am starting to work out again today...oh hooray! That is sarcasm. I haven't really worked out since the Tuesday before our wedding...that was like two weeks ago! I definitely don't want to put on any weight or lose any progress that I have already made.

I cannot say that I am ready for school to start. I don't mind working, but when school AND work come around, I know it won't be as fun. Plus, when school starts I only will be getting like 11 hours a week, so Tim and I will definitely feel that. But, God provides :0).

Am I weird? Is it normal to look at your wedding pictures atleast once a day everyday after your wedding???

Back to reality

So, here I am...back at work. Haha, it's not bad at all, but I definitely miss sleeping in everyday and spending all of my time with my husband. But, we definitely need the income, and my job is pretty sweet so I don't mind. Yesterday, I gave like 4 campus tours on my first day! It was pretty fun, I definitely don't have my facts all straight but they were short handed so I was kind of thrown into everything...but that's usually the way I like it! Today, the phone isn't really ringing, no one has come in for a visit, and there is only one person scheduled for later. So...here I sit waiting for my financial aid stuff to get all worked out.

I love married life. It is definitely a challange and it is very different, but I love it. It's crazy how much your mindset has to change from thinking about yourself to having your spouse being included in "myself." But, I think I definitely have the hang of it...I like automatically putting Tim into the equation of my thought processes and decision making. I think he's having a little more trouble, but he's definitely getting there!

I have found myself to be a much better housewife than I had expected. I like my house to be clean, so I have been cleaning up almost everynight, doing dishes without dreading it, and cooking as if it's been something I've done forever. I thought I'd be the last person to be domestic, but I'm getting the hang of it!! We have some friends who live across the hall from us, and it's nice to have people there to hang out with randomly. I love it because they just come knock on our door everyonce in a while and we'll hang out for an hour or so.

Dear SAAAEEEER, I'm glad you're back...tell Jeff to come home, too.

It's over!

First thing is first-
The wedding was wonderful and if you want to see some of the pictures from it go to www.studioworkstx.com, go to view images, weddings, Stapleton Darst, and the password is "jenni". Other fun pictures on are facebook.

As the title said, it's over! It's so crazy! I have been married for a week already! The day was beautiful and perfect and I couldn't have imagined it being any different! I can't believe that everything is done...I used to have wedding stuff on my mind all the time...now it's over. WOAH. Now, I have to think about grown up things like money haha. I really don't know what else to say about the wedding besides it was everything I ever dreamed of, just take a look at the pictures.

The honeymoon was also wonderful! We went to San Antonio and stayed in a hotel on the riverwalk...it was so much fun!! We had this whole week to spend with just us. I must say I love married life. It is true there are many more things to worry about than I had anticipated, but it's so worth it. I love going to sleep and waking up to my Timothy. God is so amazing for giving us the gift of love and marriage, what an incredible gift to know and experience the slightest glimpse of Him.

We are almost all settled in our apartment! Tomorrow we have to organize our bedroom and we will be in!! WOOHOO!

Too bad real life starts back again on Monday...I really enjoy sleeping in and spending time with my HUSBAND!

I have some readers!

I was informed by Sarah and Taylor that I needed to update...that means they read this! HOORAY! It makes it a little more fun to write when I know I have an audience. However, I really don't have much to write about which seems strange because I AM getting married in three days...but I feel as if I have talked that out the window. I am extremely excited though...I'm ready for it to be here. Today we finalized the order of service and now I know what will be going on!

Tim gets here tomorrow. I am so ridiculously...well, ridiculous. I miss him so much...I'm pretty pathetic. I said this many times, and I will say it again...I can't wait for the day when we don't have to say our goodbyes all the time. I am going to love waking up to him...not just a phone call everyonce in a while. He is working a half day tomorrow, then checking out of his room at ETBU and here he comes!! He will spend the night here and Thursday until his boys come pick up their tuxes. Then, they will have his bachelor party that night. Friday, he will come back to Arlington to help us with the reception hall followed by our rehearsal and rehearsal dinner. We say our FINAL singlehood goodbye and then it's the wedding! WOW! I am so ready.

He's been in our apartment unpacking his things...he brings his friends and I feel jealous because I'm not there in my own house hanging out with him and his friends. That's pretty absurd, I know...but I'm ready to be there with him. I'm scared I will come home to a big mess- a guy "organizing" his things in our home without my concent...yikes. I guess I'll see next Thursday when we get back from our honeymoon!

So...here's to the people who actually read my blog!

So sick of this....

I am so tired of being in a long distance relationship! Good grief, we already did a year and a half being very far apart...but the month before the wedding, really?? I feel like we've already served our time, we shouldn't have to do it again. This weekend is proving itself hard and it hasn't necessarily started yet. Tim usually comes in town or I go see him on Thursday night. Well, it's Thursday and here I am Tim-less. I mean, I understand because my bachelorette party is Saturday and so I'd only get to see him friday, during the day saturday, and sunday...but still bah! He went to Sugarland, TX to spend time with his friend Andy and to see Andy's mom get married.

I think it will be better tomorrow when Jeff, Sarah, and Colin are here. I will have some social interaction! That will be nice. I drive around all day running errands-no fun. Not that I think that will stop, especially since this is the week of the wedding...but still it will be nice to have people around.

I think that this next week will probably fly by...but I am so ready. I feel stupid because I sit around longing for Tim to be here and wishing for the day I don't have to leave him. I feel so pathetic...then again, I don't know many brides who would be excited to be long distance from their fiances the month before their wedding.

Today I spent a majority of the afternoon on the phone with auto insurance companies looking for our best option. Well, State Farm is amazing because their price is the best coverage for less than half of like Geico or All State...so I'm pretty sure that's what we're going with. This whole growing up thing is more difficult than I though! We have to worry about money and bills and life without our parents..weird. But, that's a part of starting our new lives together.
(sorry for the whiney post)

I am so ready for it to be here!

God's Answer to My Plea

This past semester, I have spent time after time in prayer weeping before God to change an aspect of Tim and I's relationship. It was a small thing that affected our relationship a lot deeper than he thought. Time after time, I cried pleading with God to change it because it was not in my power to mend something that was not in my control.

Today, I got a big answer to my prayer. This morning I spent a majority of it crying and praying to God to again mend what was broken. Tim called and knew something was bothering me and we finally got to talk tonight. In the middle of me explaining to him how I felt, he asked me if he could interrupt because he wanted to tell me something. He told me that God really spoke to him this morning and made him realize that our relationship was more important than little things that caused tension and fighting. He was afraid he would lose me to them. He told me that I am more important to him that anything else and that the things ailing us were worthless. He told me how much I meant to him and how much he loves me.

I can say with confidence that I know he is truly amazing and he loves me more than anything. I am the most blessed bride of Chirst and Tim, and I am so thankful. Prayer is so powerful. Just when I felt hopeless, God worked his magic and my spirit feels so alive. Such a burden was taken away from me today, and it feels so good.